everything about my life has changed, and it seems like such a mess. the crueler part, though, is that it’s been a mess for years and years. factually speaking my life is probably the most ‘together’ it’s been since ever. it seems like there’s chaos underlying all the stability. I haven’t made it through uni… Continue reading next

the (b)right side

there are so many ways for someone to say that it could always be worse. i’m sure you’re familiar: silver linings, count your blessings, “at least you’re not dead”, etc, etc…the thing that bothers me about these sentiments isn’t the delivery. i know the intent is good, but it always feels like there’s an unsaid… Continue reading the (b)right side


i don’t know how to put myself together. i didn’t really know that i had to, until someone pointed out the pieces. i used to wonder why everyone else seemed so functional, so that really should have given me a hint. i didn’t pick up on it. i didn’t pick up on a lot of… Continue reading jigsaw


there’s just something about being tired. i’ve been tired for a decade now. it sounds melodramatic, but it’s true. i’ve got medical issues related to sleep and sleep quality, and i’ve worked various jobs which had me up and down at weird hours. another part of the issue was multifaceted. i’ve also been struggling with… Continue reading tired

to my therapist

dear anonymous,it’s been a while since i’ve spoken to you. nobody’s fault, of course, and i know you operated slightly outside your scope of practice for me, and i’m thankful for that. i remember i wrote down this website on the back of one of your contact cards, and gave it to you before i… Continue reading to my therapist


the strangest thing about progress is that it looks different to everyone. for me, I haven’t had a job for almost four months now. I got approved to drive for Uber, which I’m going to do to bring in some money while I’m functionally unemployed. but when I was employed, driving for Uber was the… Continue reading progress